Expression Through Clothes

 If you follow me anywhere on social media, you have more than likely seen me post what outfit I have been wearing for the day, or sometimes post a few outfits in one big post. I love to create cool looks with the clothes I have to express how I am feeling about myself. I don't always get along with gender, having days where I feel the need to present more androgynously. It's something I've become aware of and accepted as myself sometime between my junior and senior years. Because of my daily identity crisis, I spend an unhealthy amount of time staring at the clothes in the closet. Clothing is the most important part of self-expression for me.

An outfit I wore on a she day.

    I don't always exactly know if it is a "she day" or a "they day," it comes with trial and error. I'll try out an outfit, stare in the mirror and either have an immediate reaction of excitement or immediately despise how I look and feel. There have been plenty of days where I just put on clothes and cannot stand how I feel but do not have the time to go back and change into something that'll make me feel better about myself. I don't let it ruin my day, but it isn't fun looking more androgynous when I want to feel especially girly. 

    I struggle to even find the confidence to even dress in comfy clothes for school. I don't think I will rock sweats and a tee shirt or a hoodie and leggings anytime soon. All through high school, I had to wear a uniform that made me feel like I was dressed poorly. I think I'm making up for all of those bad-looking days with cooler new outfits. The closest to a "lazy" outfit for me might be a baby-doll dress and Converse or ripped jeans with a cardigan. Sometimes I'm brave and wear a PNW hoodie over the outfit I'm wearing. Usually, that's on exceptionally cold days when I don't center my outfit around a sweater.

An outfit I wore on a they day.

Fashion has made me feel so much more comfortable in my skin though. I finally feel like myself almost all of the time. I'm no longer restricted to wear what someone tells me to wear to go to school. I dress (for the most part) nicely. I hope I slowly don't always feel the need to overdress for classes or just going out in general. I like to be comfy sometimes, but I still haven't figured out how to be comfy in public. I'm okay with that for now though, I love creating unique looks!