Overworking Myself and Procrastinating

    Sometimes I joke college is all about putting on a cute outfit and talking to people. But it's really not as we all unfortunately know. As we reach the halfway mark in the semester, I'm starting to feel the pressure of being a student. Especially as an A/B student. Is that called the "honor roll" in college? Who knows. It's not the point I'm trying to make. What I'm trying to say is I'm working on overdrive, except it's not working and I have mentally exhausted myself today.

    This week has been a preparatory week. I have to leave town next week for a few days and I really don't want to fall behind in any of my classes and need to make up work over break. So I set personal deadlines for work, which sounded awesome in theory. I was gonna work at 200% this week and get it ALL done. Except- I didn't. I worked at maybe 50% efficiency this week. I procrastinated on my own goals. It feels crazy that I would set myself up for failure, but I did. I went on too many Tik Tok binges. I hear Adam Driver screaming in my head more than my own thoughts at this point. (See video for specific lines I've heard.)

   

 Aside from the Tik Tok binges and Adam Driver jokes, I've also dealt with screen fatigue when I do work on my laptop. I've had some tough migraines this week. There is not enough Tylenol and Caffeine available to solve my problems. I worry about my grades, I don't want to drop a letter grade in my classes because of personal issues. I'm working hard now and planning on not stopping for the rest of the night. I had a good nap and a very good meal tonight, so I should be unstoppable tonight. Unless my head decides otherwise.

    I hope after this week and fall break, I'm able to catch up and mentally reset for my schoolwork. Hopefully, it goes the same for everyone else here too. It's been a long few weeks and we all need to rest up and recover so we can finish this semester strong.